I’d better get there early to meet and greet. Except, I can’t right now because I’m too angry. I’m also aware of the shadows I’ll cast, and so I linger. I can’t bring myself to rise and face the world. All eyes will be on me.
Instead of bathing in rage, I must shower with calmness.
I lay out a carpet. I sit and look straight ahead. I stretch and breathe. I remind myself. The people I’ll see later has nothing to do with my rage, and they don’t deserve the negative emotion building inside of me.
They expect to see a friendly leader who’ll bring forth much-needed change. The highly charged magnet they hired to drive the impossible.
And so, I delay to exhale. I am late to the session because I don’t want to be here.
Once I arrive, however, I turn on the light to exude the lightness despite the rage within. I greet and smile. I play the part. The giant stirs inside but is put to rest for now.