We embrace for the very first time. I look into your eyes and tell you the hidden truth. “You know I love you, right? I have loved you for a long time but was too afraid to say it.” Then your eyes turn misty. You say you feel the same.
I whisper so no one else can hear, “you know, you deserve all the love and happiness in the world. I love you. I love you.”
Then we embrace once more.
I have always been with you. I will always be with you.
If we say goodbye now, my heart will wither away, like it did many times before this moment. I’d like to give ourselves a fighting chance to thrive before I shut you out again. We’ve been here before, haven’t we? This is not the first time, nor this will be our last. I wish this was our last, but I’m learning to let go of the things I cannot control. See how far we’ve come? See how big we’ve grown?
I love you. I have loved you for a long time. I have loved you without expectations. I have loved you wholeheartedly. But also with hesitation. I have loved you in my shadows. The love never saw the light. The love was too afraid to come out.
Today and forever, I will love you willingly. This time will be different. I will love you and tell you so. I will let the light into this love. The person I adore. The person I respect. You are worthy. You are beautiful. You are enough.
I will let the love feed and nourish your frail soul. I will open the windows wide open to let the sunshine in. I shall let the love flourish despite the tears. Because I know now what not to do. Because I know now what to do.
I hope you see how wonderful your imperfections are. You deserve love and kindness, more than you are used to. You give so much. You must learn to receive.
You will do great things. You’ve already done so much. Remember, things never work according to your master plan and that’s okay.
You’ve been looking for me in all the wrong places. All you had to do. All you have to do now and forever is to open your eyes to let the truth in. The person you seek has been with you since the beginning of time occupying different parts of you. The unconditional love you seek lives within you.
You and I are one. I have grown big and strong to protect you and embrace you. You don’t have to hide anymore. You don’t have to run away. You don’t have to be afraid. You don’t have to be afraid. Remember, you don’t have to be afraid. The fear that’s kept you safe is no longer required to keep you alive. You don’t have to stay quiet. No harm will come your way. You are no longer a small child. You no longer have to shed your tears in solitude. You have done your best. You have earned your rest.
I am you. You are me. We are one.
And I love you. I love you with all of me because you are all I have. I am all you have. And this is enough. You are and I are enough. Together, just as we are.